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The Darkest Night Quote Victor Hugo

The Darkest Nights Quote Victor Hugo

Even the darkest night will end,  and the sun will rise.”                                                                                                                                              –  Victor Hugo

The Darkest Nights Quote

Ever since I was little,  I have always had a sense of dread come over me as the sun goes down and blackness fills the sky.

I’m not sure why.

I’ve wondered if maybe it’s because of my fear of death,  the dark end of the day reminding me that someday my life will be ending as well.   Or maybe it’s because I have such a negative leaning personality and without the activity of the day and the sun shining brightly to distract me,  my true darker side comes out.   Perhaps it’s because I know that everybody is going to bed and shutting down for the day and that makes me feel a little bit lonely.   I don’t know,  but whatever the cause,  this dread has been my companion for as long as I can remember.

It used to bother me a lot more when I was younger,   but now,   as soon as I see the last traces of orange and purple leave the sky,  I remind myself that the Earth is already spinning me back toward that light again.   Every second brings it a little bit closer.   It is inevitable.   I don’t have to worry about it.   I don’t have to try to control it.   It is the one and only thing in this world that I can count on with 100% certainty.   Its bigger than me,  and as somebody whose imagination causes me to believe that everything in my world is larger and more important than it is,  I am very comforted by that feeling of being small and insignificant.   My presence here on earth does not impact the rising of the sun one bit..and I love that.   I need that.

 

 

Of course,   Victor Hugo meant his words in the figurative sense,  and I remind myself of them whenever I am going through a particularly rough time.

This WILL pass”,   I tell myself.   “All I have to do is stay strong and wait patiently”.

I may not have the 4 billion year proven track record that the sun has,  but I do have 43 years of surviving on this Earth to base my faith in myself upon.   Because of my anxiety disorder and the losses in my life,  I have had dark nights that have lasted for weeks…months even….but there hasn’t been one that hasn’t ended with a sun rise eventually.

Sometimes we have problems so big that it can feel like it is taking an eternity for our world to spin us back to the sun,  but we have to have faith that every second is bringing us one step closer to it.   We don’t have to try to control it.   We simply have to hang on tight,  not lose our balance and keep our eyes to the sky,   looking for those first glimpses of light.

 

The Darkest Nights Quote

 

 

 

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7 thoughts on “The Darkest Nights

  1. We Are All Scared

    “We simply have to hang on tight and not lose our balance and keep our eyes to the sky, looking for those first glimpses of light.”

    That ending line is something I’ve been doing recently. Sometimes the fight last for so long that all you can do is to hold on and wait for some levity to drift in. The fear of night can also be related to the dread of winter. I hate it when it gets dark at 4:30 in the afternoon. So, to make myself feel better I remind myself that after December 21st we get a little more daylight every day.

    Great post! I’ll keep checking back as much as possible.

    1. Fleurdelisa Post author

      Thanks Josh! So good to hear from you again! I too dislike the short winter days. I’m happy March is here and we can start looking towards spring and summer and those nice long days. 🙂

  2. Aaron J Kelley

    As always, loved this post. This quote: “…as soon as I see the last traces of orange and purple leave the sky, I remind myself that the Earth is already spinning me back toward that light again. Every second brings it a little bit closer. It is inevitable. I don’t have to worry about it. I don’t have to try to control it. It is the one and only thing in this world that I can count on with 100% certainty. ”

    That says it all. Even the world is working on your behalf to get you to your future.

  3. Sandra

    So interesting and yet I totally get it. I work nights, and although I work them because I can handle the pace better, having to be up while the rest of the world is sleeping is thoroughly painful. But I guess working nights is the lesser of two evils: stay up all night or have a complete breakdown at work during daylight hours lol Terrific post Lisa!

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